JR's Journal

Day 513. I get the reasoning of not holding such things against myself, but I have not yet found the release from the guilt they fed...

Day 512. In the interest of protecting my sobriety, I've been careful not to become a 'helper' too quickly. Now, as I'm completing my...

Day 507. Like so many other moments of discovery in recovery, I do not understand this; neither do I question it beyond a point of...

Day 506. Then I fell off the freaking cliff of stupidity and started searching for the air brakes. I looked first in the bottom of my...

Day 505. My patience with quarrels and discomforts have astounded me as I've been able to stay present when I would previously have run...

Day 503. These people of my soul often dwell in my thoughts as I recall their actions and wonder about their futures. I am eager to get...

Day 500. I did not lose my job or my family or any more of my resources than those I spent willingly on my addiction. There are probably...

Day 490. I have been unsuccessful in finding a way back from the ubiquitous sexualizing of everything to a place where I can enjoy the...

Day 477. I mean, what if I have to develop professional relationships with (God forbid) women? Is that going to be harder for my wife or...